A Bridge Too Far

It's 1.45am now but I'm not able to sleep... There's too much noise... and it's all coming through me... the messages are so clear now.... the signs sent to me lately are so clear to me now.... but they all come with so much noise. It's so overwhelming that I decided to get out of bed completely and so here I am now... trying to write the noise out of me....

It rained all day today but early this evening, the sun suddenly appeared and I'd never seen it shine so bright.... But as suddenly as it appeared, it faded just as quickly away, and the only thing that remained was so intensly cold. Sometimes the sun comes out so beautifully and gives so much warmth, you wish it would stay with you forever... but suddenly clouds come and the sun starts to fade away... and the further the sun seems to stray... until it even hides itself from you... sometimes for a day, sometimes for a week or two.

And then comes a day when you realise that you can't remember feeling it... for so much time has passed since you felt the warmth on your skin.... the distance is now too great... and you can't seem to find the very bridge that brought you to it in the first place... it seems too far... but yet you search...

And after a while, as long as the sun hides itself, you grow weary... you feel the energy leaving you... it gets colder..

olam haba, originally uploaded by nice+smooth ultramedia.

But like all things in life, there are different paths you can take... there is always choice... give up searching and wait in patience, for you believe the sun will come again to find you, only you just don't know when... or keep on searching, believing you'll soon find that same bridge that connected you once before... or build a new bridge to lead you to the sun that's still out there somewhere...
which path will you walk?

Whichever path you take, there is no wrong or right... whichever path you take, you need strength to walk it... whichever the path, there's no sure thing of where it will lead... but question is, do you have enough strength if you have to walk alone?

Forgive me if what I've written seems too flaky, too dreamy... it's now 4am and I've been here for more than 2 hrs now but the noise still hasn't left. And above all, I'm deprived of sleep so my brain's only half here... Regardless, in about 2hrs time, I still have to leave for work, but though I'm still not able to sleep, I think I'll just lay down and give my eyes some rest at least...